yuhuuu

i finally moved to a new room .
actually i quite like the previous room, the privacy given . no rules . just that i did not liked the violence and fight in the house and also the distance to town . 1 hour plus of bus ride . And i'm a little racist . lol


had hard time adjusting to the new place . staying with an old lady . i guess i already gave her enough time to adjust with me . somehow i think we did not click . so much of rules . no privacy .
anyways i'm going to move to another room (hopefully i will be able to find one without going through the agents and signing contract.don't like the idea of signing contract.)


staying in the city now , i'm 10 minutes away to the gym . 20 minutes walk to the gym (yet i still contemplate to go or not to go.heh)


i think i just sprained my wrist, AGAIN for the 2nd time all this 5 years . therefore i'm taking precaution not to go gym today , in case i worsen it(imagine no gym for 2 months) . heh . i felt so crappy now.

i think my left knee injury is also saying hello to me . it hurts when i walk up the stairs .
is it that i'm getting old ? or i did workout in the wrong way ? :(
i have this phobia that my knee will 'patah' everytime i climbed up/down the stairs.


lately i don't know i have been busy with what . been organizing and arranging my songs on itunes . i'm busy applying for jobs and also busy attending classes .


i'm 4 days away to return home . want to get my hair fixed . scaling on dental . also i have been invited by my friends to celebrate Halloween, dress up! seems like i'm not giving a shit because i will be catching AAR with Aimee*woooooooot* , i missed them once , definitely wont miss them this time :)


oh yes . i've finally got my voice back . i'm so happy . i should not complain how much is spent on it .

Having a loss voice is so not cool ok , having to repeat the same sentence , getting the stares from people , and the annoyed 'pardon me' face . my younger brother said i sounded like david archuleta . *pengsan* therefore he also want to have Laryngitis . i told him 'you something wrong' .

Some friend of mine still prefer my husky hoarse voice . *draws a circle on the floor* they call it sexy , i don't like it although it might sound cool somehow . DOES THAT MEAN I SOUND LIKE SHIT NOW ?! haha .


anyways i'm getting my magnum fix now . *yum* and all the guilt falls down to my shoulder .

dead

Hello one and all,

I have been lazy, no doubt about that. My urge to blog has not been forthcoming. Whatever it is, here is a quick update.

Hai!
My name is Anthea :)


ok.


Bye!

i'm talking shit

hello .

i'm leaving in 4 hours . parents are driving me back .
happy packing.throwing.donating.selling.(moving my stuff back)

moving to a better place and room.

some how my heart still does not want to leave .
some how part of me does not want to stay here in the house .
somehow i want to leave so badly . im talking shit right now .


i'm so 'mango-ey mango-fied'.
just had my dinner with a gym mate. i had this mango drink , it is so THICK . it took me nearly forever to made it halfway. after pouring some ice in .

tasted like cheesey mango drink , he had mango dessert. somehow it tasted like (*****) towards the end (insert appropriate word) <-- i'm going to leave you guessing.

When i got home, i got a suprise frm sayang on the table . yes

what else if it's not

mango snow ice .


it seems like i'm more calm this time . it seems like i want to see her suffer more.it seems like i lose more feelings . it seems like i wanted him to stay longer . it seems like i don't want to hear him suffer more. it seems like i'm mentally unstable . and so on . it seems like i'm still talking shit . it seems like i'm still staying up for no reason . it seems like suddenly i miss the comfort zone . it seems like i ...

gotta get some sleep now.

till then , take good care ppl . hugs and kisses .

you know you have been missed by me! <--- VIPS ok

whatever

how am i coping ?

i don't know . unless some hot hunk that pushes my button falls from the skies . i felt so empty suddenly . i felt so betrayed and used suddenly .

i don't believe the shit that has been going on around .
i'll summarize it ok ? i don't trust anyone else now , except myself .

i'm extremely disgusted and disappointed .

i don't like the fucking cold treatment .

i don't like the bad treatment i got from home too .


please please please . don't let me fall into depression mode.

i'm giving my best shot to move on .